Stress

I feel so stress recently. I'm so busy with the three folios which are Account folio, Addmath folio and Science folio. We should finish the folios during the mid year holidays. Yet, i spent my holidays with the korean dramas. That's all. I didn't touch any homework on the first week. I was just enjoyed watching dramas, eating and then sleeping. Everyday i did the same things. And now only i felt that this such of life is too meaningless but i can't pull back the time.

On the Wednesday of the second week, I started to do my homework. I was extremely regret when i found that i'll never complete all the homework in few days. That time, i felt stress. The night before school reopen, i suffer of insomnia. I woke up late in the morning. Then i have to rush to school because i have to set up the PA system for assembly. The worst thing is nobody come and help me. ALWAYS! I told them to come before 7am but they're always late. I have to carry all the stuff from Media to the car park. Every time when i was finished prepared for the assembly, the other media girls only came. So, what use they come when everything is done? I felt so angry with them! Somemore, the PA system was failure. All the teacher look at me and i don't know what to do! I just try and error. I'm just a girl. And sometimes the teachers seem like thinking me is Super Women, think that i can figure out all the problems. Hello? I used to be a Naib Bendahari okay? I get the post of Ketua Teknikal in a sudden okayyy?!

 I super duper HATE when i'm sweating like hell in the early morning.

I never thought this post is writing bout me. Thankyou Tan Mei Wei 

The other thing that make me feel so stress is Account folio. Account is such an important place in my heart. I don't know why. Maybe my mum and my sis is too expert in Account and thus making me feel stress if i couldn't do well in account? Maybe do well in Account is the only way to prove my decision to transfer from science stream to art stream is right? Yes, I think both of it. Account folio is counted 10% in SPM. That's why i wish i could get high marks so i can get a better result for my account in SPM so that i won't feel ashamed of it to my family. I regret why i didn't complete it during the holidays. 

On Wednesday night, I got scold from mum because I didn't tell her i want to use pc to do my acc folio(so she will bring laptop back to watch her drama). Then, I also got scold from my bro because my mum went to my bro's room and use his pc to watch drama -,- Ohhh mummy, can't you stop watching your drama for a day?

My printer is lack of ink. I can't print the whole set of folio. So i must complete it on Wed and send to Moon Yi so she can help me to print it out. *Thankyou so muchhhiee! :)*  I was so so so so tension that night. Until i keep hitting my head, shout out loud, when something wrong with the folio. That night, i think i'm really crazy. I can't control my madness. The only thing calm me down is a song, Protect You by Kim Jae Joong. I replay the song more than 10 times. It works! It calm my heart.

And, that night, I totally agreed with an opinion of me from my two best friend. They are M&F. They said sometimes i gave people a very strong feeling. I am too stubborn. I very insisted with my opinion and i want everyone follow me. That night, I realize that :" Ahhhhh~ What they said are true. I really too stubborn." Eventually i found my defect. I will try to get rid of my defect. Thanks you two for the opinion :)

Besides, i found that my bro is very concern bout me and he's just pretend to be fierce. When I was still sitting in front of the pc and typing for acc folio, my bro came into the room and said: "Why are you still up? Do you know what's the time now? It's 1.50am! If all that is left will be completed then it's okay but there're so many left to do, it's no use to stay until now to complete it! Now is almost 2am and you have to wake up on 6am. You only sleep 4 hours you know?" I was so shocked and touched when he said this to me. Although his words are rude but i found his sincere.

Thursday, I have to stay back to help Miss Amlor to set up PA system for the rehearsal of Tamil activity. In class, she always ask me for help and i was really willing to help her. But, sometimes i feel stress when i have to postpone the task she given and take it back home to do, but in fact i can complete them in the class.

Apart from that, all the folios have to pass up on Friday. Thanks God because i had passed up them yesterday (Fri). Hopefully there's no problem with it, especially the Account Folio! :/

These few days teachers are giving back our mid-term exam paper. I was extremely happy when i got my English paper. I got 81 marks. I know it couldn't compare  to the Cekal class, but i still feeling good because i wrote them without any tips! I am so concerned about my ranking in class this time. I don't know why. Maybe because of the gossip from the teachers (saying my academic result was getting worsen) , my sis (saying i was replaced by the former art stream student where i was from science stream) , Cekal friends (i don't want they think that i was getting worsen after i transfer to CEM).... All these reasons are making me in a tension mood. I was keep searching the one or two marks if it could affect my CPGA. I was very afraid to lose again. I know i shouldn't too concern bout the ranking but i can't control myself. :/

Ouchhhhhhhhh! STRESS! :(

After folio, there are somethings to make me feel stress again. Tanjung and Minggu Pusat Sumber Sekolah. I'm the setiausaha of Tanjung. The teacher keep urging me to pass up the laporan that completed with isi and decoration. Decoration would get marks and she wants me to win in "Laporan Competition". Honestly, i have idea to decorate it but i don't have the ability to do it. How i wish i was good in drawing -,-

Another thing is Minggu PSS. During the week, Media will having tayangan in bilik media and also jualan. I'm Ketua Teknikal. I have to handle the tayangan. I have to decide what film to screen and buy the film. Pn.Tan used to buy the film but now she was no more in school so i have to take over the job. Thing become worst when the other teachers also don't know how to set up for the movie. I have to do it ALONE! :( Thankfully my senior promised me to come back school to teach me.

Ahhhhhhhhh! STRESS! :( 

Not only those incident that i wrote above making me fell stress. There are still many problem like family problem. These few days i just keep being silent. Friends ask me why i became so quiet and i just pretend nothing happened. Several times i almost cry in the class. I don't want to talk anymore so please don't ask me and just pretend you don't know everything and just act like usual please.

Let time to solve the problems. Like what Mei Wei said, my sanguine nature could overcome my obstacles. Just wait and I'll be back soon :)

Before i end this post, I want to apologize if i did anything wrong to you guys or i said something rude to you or my tweet is too emo and making you feel unpleasant. So sorry if i did these to anyone of you! Please forgive me.